Wednesday, March 31, 2004
the Eagles - One of These Nights
I forgot in my last post to mention that I'm going to be at Thinkfast at my church from 5 pm Friday until 6 pm Saturday. This means that on Saturday after Thinkfast I'm going to want to go get some food and do something. Any takers? I'll most likely be driving... I just really don't feel like going home this weekend if I don't have to. Oh, and if anyone reads this before 10 tonight and wants to go grab some eats with me tell me on MSN or call my cell or something. I don't have use of the truck tonight, my sister took it, so keep that in mind. I doubt anyone will call, but I'm putting it out there anyway.
I forgot in my last post to mention that I'm going to be at Thinkfast at my church from 5 pm Friday until 6 pm Saturday. This means that on Saturday after Thinkfast I'm going to want to go get some food and do something. Any takers? I'll most likely be driving... I just really don't feel like going home this weekend if I don't have to. Oh, and if anyone reads this before 10 tonight and wants to go grab some eats with me tell me on MSN or call my cell or something. I don't have use of the truck tonight, my sister took it, so keep that in mind. I doubt anyone will call, but I'm putting it out there anyway.
The Doors - Touch Me
Last nght was a blast. The movie was amazing (Dawn of the Dead) it ended up being Melissa, Ryan M, Steve and I there. Sarah and Bryce showed up but they didn't find us until after the movie, and so we talked to them for a bit but then they left. So The four of us went to the bank and then went to Mc Dick's for food and coffee. It was the only place we could agree on that was still open. After that we went to Ryan's. We spent awhile playing video games (or us girls watching the boys play video games because they got there first) and then we watched a bit of Donny Darko. I had to be home around one, so Melissa and I left at ten to. Ryan wanted us to stay longer and was bugging me to be rebellious and not go home. We managed to get out of there with the promise that I'd be rebellious once school was over for the semester, though I did push it a little bit because my "curfew" is one and I got home at about a quarter past. He says I should come home fifteen minutes later every night I go out until I find the limit (when I get yelled at) and then stay at the limit until I stop being yelled at and then start pushing again, to push my curfew back until the rule is more like, "don't wake me up when you come home." But yeah, loads of homework to do tonight, I should start.
Last nght was a blast. The movie was amazing (Dawn of the Dead) it ended up being Melissa, Ryan M, Steve and I there. Sarah and Bryce showed up but they didn't find us until after the movie, and so we talked to them for a bit but then they left. So The four of us went to the bank and then went to Mc Dick's for food and coffee. It was the only place we could agree on that was still open. After that we went to Ryan's. We spent awhile playing video games (or us girls watching the boys play video games because they got there first) and then we watched a bit of Donny Darko. I had to be home around one, so Melissa and I left at ten to. Ryan wanted us to stay longer and was bugging me to be rebellious and not go home. We managed to get out of there with the promise that I'd be rebellious once school was over for the semester, though I did push it a little bit because my "curfew" is one and I got home at about a quarter past. He says I should come home fifteen minutes later every night I go out until I find the limit (when I get yelled at) and then stay at the limit until I stop being yelled at and then start pushing again, to push my curfew back until the rule is more like, "don't wake me up when you come home." But yeah, loads of homework to do tonight, I should start.
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
Leanne Rimes - The Right Kind of Wrong
And once again, current song is the song of the day *le sigh*. But actually, I'm feeling pretty great. I got an A on my English midterm, my prof really liked my analysis and my letter. She said if I give her an adressed envelope to the lady I was writing it to and let her post it she'll give me an A+, but I don't want to get Ryan M in any more trouble (it's to fat bitch, his neighbor, though I don't call her that in the letter). Then I got some coffee, chocolate fudge brownie latte. Visited Brandon who was in a really bad mood, got out of there quick and talked to Melissa for a bit, called Ryan about movie tonight (Dawn of the Dead, oh yeah!) and then came back here. It seems wrong somehow to be inside today, it's so nice... but I can't do homework outside. I should just go for a walk or something, but I have no one to walk with and I get bored when I'm walking all alone. I should probably eat something... seeing as I only had a cookie, a rice crispy square, a carrot and half an apple yesterday and I haven't had anything yet today... I'm just not hungry. It's really weird, normally I'd be starving but I'm just not getting hungry at all lately. I know I should be eating anyways but I just don't see the point in eating unless I'm hungry. I'm going to go check the dartwars site.
You are a Siren. More adventurous than all with a
voice like no other you sit on warm rocks and
sing to the moon and sea. Yet sometimes
shipwrecks find you and raving men want you.
You are a bottle of talent and power. What the
unknown is you seek to find, and a lover. You
have the moon and stars as freinds. There are a
very few of you, what a rare find. Will you
rate my quiz, I think your voice in just
beautiful?
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And once again, current song is the song of the day *le sigh*. But actually, I'm feeling pretty great. I got an A on my English midterm, my prof really liked my analysis and my letter. She said if I give her an adressed envelope to the lady I was writing it to and let her post it she'll give me an A+, but I don't want to get Ryan M in any more trouble (it's to fat bitch, his neighbor, though I don't call her that in the letter). Then I got some coffee, chocolate fudge brownie latte. Visited Brandon who was in a really bad mood, got out of there quick and talked to Melissa for a bit, called Ryan about movie tonight (Dawn of the Dead, oh yeah!) and then came back here. It seems wrong somehow to be inside today, it's so nice... but I can't do homework outside. I should just go for a walk or something, but I have no one to walk with and I get bored when I'm walking all alone. I should probably eat something... seeing as I only had a cookie, a rice crispy square, a carrot and half an apple yesterday and I haven't had anything yet today... I'm just not hungry. It's really weird, normally I'd be starving but I'm just not getting hungry at all lately. I know I should be eating anyways but I just don't see the point in eating unless I'm hungry. I'm going to go check the dartwars site.
You are a Siren. More adventurous than all with a
voice like no other you sit on warm rocks and
sing to the moon and sea. Yet sometimes
shipwrecks find you and raving men want you.
You are a bottle of talent and power. What the
unknown is you seek to find, and a lover. You
have the moon and stars as freinds. There are a
very few of you, what a rare find. Will you
rate my quiz, I think your voice in just
beautiful?
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Monday, March 29, 2004
The Movielife - If Only Duct Tape Could Fix Everything
Wow, I wasn't online all weekend. I was just... busy. I filmed all day Saturday... well, from 2-10, allowing for bubble tea runs and some video game breaks. My TV is broken. So Then I was wandering around Bonavista drinking orange juice and Melissa called me and told me to come to Ryan's. I arrived at about 11:30 and had to leave again at 1, but it was fun while it lasted. We wasted time looking at the pretty colour black light and candle light made while mixing on his closet doors; I need more nights like that. Sunday I was at work 12-4, then I walked home and heard a garage band practicing, they were good. It was nice out; I wish I could spend more time outside. Then I had church, it didn't feel like Sunday. We had a Bonfire Cafe after mass, Dion showed up; I hadn't seen that kid in a while, it was good. I spent the rest of the night looking through my old portfolio's from high school and Junior High, putting up the stuff I didn't hate on my walls and feeling nostalgic. I can't remember how to make art anymore, everything that flows from my fingers is crap now. I should have been doing my homework, writing my 500-word english essay, reading my economics textbook, something... but I didn't. I should have worked on my essay this morning but I read a novel instead. I need to now, it's due tomorrow. I wish I was as free as I was a few years back, I feel so restrained now, and I really hate that. I hate the personality I've made for Emma Dobbs (my Harry Potter RP character), she's such a pushover. She needs to get some balls, stand up for herself. Maybe the reason I'm so frustrated with her is because she's stood up to her parent's and I still see her as a pushover, and I haven't even stood up to mine yet. I need to break a few rules, live a little, but I'm too scared of the consequences. I hate that fear, I wish I were brave, but I never have been, I don't think I can be. I decided today that I was sick and tired of getting out of everyone's way, I'm allways the one dodging everyone else in the hall, moving for everyone else. I'M SICK AND TIRED OF IT. From now on they can get out of my way, I'm not moving anymore. Maybe that can be considered a step in the right direction; baby steps, I'm still very new to this.
Wow, I wasn't online all weekend. I was just... busy. I filmed all day Saturday... well, from 2-10, allowing for bubble tea runs and some video game breaks. My TV is broken. So Then I was wandering around Bonavista drinking orange juice and Melissa called me and told me to come to Ryan's. I arrived at about 11:30 and had to leave again at 1, but it was fun while it lasted. We wasted time looking at the pretty colour black light and candle light made while mixing on his closet doors; I need more nights like that. Sunday I was at work 12-4, then I walked home and heard a garage band practicing, they were good. It was nice out; I wish I could spend more time outside. Then I had church, it didn't feel like Sunday. We had a Bonfire Cafe after mass, Dion showed up; I hadn't seen that kid in a while, it was good. I spent the rest of the night looking through my old portfolio's from high school and Junior High, putting up the stuff I didn't hate on my walls and feeling nostalgic. I can't remember how to make art anymore, everything that flows from my fingers is crap now. I should have been doing my homework, writing my 500-word english essay, reading my economics textbook, something... but I didn't. I should have worked on my essay this morning but I read a novel instead. I need to now, it's due tomorrow. I wish I was as free as I was a few years back, I feel so restrained now, and I really hate that. I hate the personality I've made for Emma Dobbs (my Harry Potter RP character), she's such a pushover. She needs to get some balls, stand up for herself. Maybe the reason I'm so frustrated with her is because she's stood up to her parent's and I still see her as a pushover, and I haven't even stood up to mine yet. I need to break a few rules, live a little, but I'm too scared of the consequences. I hate that fear, I wish I were brave, but I never have been, I don't think I can be. I decided today that I was sick and tired of getting out of everyone's way, I'm allways the one dodging everyone else in the hall, moving for everyone else. I'M SICK AND TIRED OF IT. From now on they can get out of my way, I'm not moving anymore. Maybe that can be considered a step in the right direction; baby steps, I'm still very new to this.
Friday, March 26, 2004
From Autumn to Ashes - A Penny for your Confessions
I'm cold, and I feel fat even though all I've had to eat today is Orange juice and a little bag of cheezies. I know, not even coffee (haven't had time, I'm getting one before work). I should probably eat something before I leave... I don't want to but I should, so I probably will. If I don't I'll just stuff my face late tonight when I shouldn't. I don't think I did very well on my Philosophy exam today... I didn't know what I was talking about. Oh well. Last night was allright. Got to Mal's at a quarter to seven, she made some salad and pasta, it was really good. The limo showed up at about 8:25 and we left for the Whiskey. It was my first time being in a limo, it was pretty okay. We got there and I had some fruit from the buffet, it was $1.25 hiballs as well, so I had a few of those. There were some male strippers, it was hillarious... them trying to be sexy... just no. It didn't work. It was a good laugh though, and one of the guys was playing with fire, that was cool. So after the strippers Malloreigh, Chelsea and Melody left and it was only Sarah, Melissa and I there. Melissa got a ride from someone who she ran into there and Sarah's dad picked her and I up at eleven. Then I read some of Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, because I'm excited about that movie and I love those books. I need to talk to Brandon about what that book is that he was reading. He's not working today though, boo-urns. No, I haven't checked, he told me. Weird. I think I have shin splints in my right leg. I haven't had shin splints since grade ten or eleven. I forgot how much they suck.
I'm cold, and I feel fat even though all I've had to eat today is Orange juice and a little bag of cheezies. I know, not even coffee (haven't had time, I'm getting one before work). I should probably eat something before I leave... I don't want to but I should, so I probably will. If I don't I'll just stuff my face late tonight when I shouldn't. I don't think I did very well on my Philosophy exam today... I didn't know what I was talking about. Oh well. Last night was allright. Got to Mal's at a quarter to seven, she made some salad and pasta, it was really good. The limo showed up at about 8:25 and we left for the Whiskey. It was my first time being in a limo, it was pretty okay. We got there and I had some fruit from the buffet, it was $1.25 hiballs as well, so I had a few of those. There were some male strippers, it was hillarious... them trying to be sexy... just no. It didn't work. It was a good laugh though, and one of the guys was playing with fire, that was cool. So after the strippers Malloreigh, Chelsea and Melody left and it was only Sarah, Melissa and I there. Melissa got a ride from someone who she ran into there and Sarah's dad picked her and I up at eleven. Then I read some of Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, because I'm excited about that movie and I love those books. I need to talk to Brandon about what that book is that he was reading. He's not working today though, boo-urns. No, I haven't checked, he told me. Weird. I think I have shin splints in my right leg. I haven't had shin splints since grade ten or eleven. I forgot how much they suck.
Thursday, March 25, 2004
No Use for a Name - Saddest Song; The Ataris - Beautiful Mistake
Today's been okay to me so far. English went okay, other than a few strange looks cast at me from my prof earlier on in the lecture. I threw in a few witty comments and input during class discussion and she stopped looking at me funny. PROF: "So would any of you actually use the word perhaps in an essay?" ME: "Perhaps." I know, look at my stupid comments, but it got a good laugh out of a few people sitting close by. Then I went to the mall, got myself a coffee, talked to Melissa for a little while, got my work schedule for next week. When I came home my mom was on my case about what I'm going to do next year and about how my high school marks aren't good enough to do anything with my life and I need to upgrade them next year if I can't get into anything worthwhile. Then my dad called and was on my case about getting a good job this summer becauser I should start doing something more with my life. I'm looking forward to tonight, it should hopefully be a nice distraction. So then my mom had me go to the radiology clinic in Southcenter to talk to the technicians because it will look good on my application to NAIT (yeah, she wants me to go to Edmonton next year if I can). On the way out I convinced her to buy me another coffee, and we ran into Brandon at SEARS so I talked to him for a bit. He met my brother for the first time, it was cool. I need to work on my essays (english, philosophy and sociology), my poster (english), and read stuff (econ and english). Blah.
Today's been okay to me so far. English went okay, other than a few strange looks cast at me from my prof earlier on in the lecture. I threw in a few witty comments and input during class discussion and she stopped looking at me funny. PROF: "So would any of you actually use the word perhaps in an essay?" ME: "Perhaps." I know, look at my stupid comments, but it got a good laugh out of a few people sitting close by. Then I went to the mall, got myself a coffee, talked to Melissa for a little while, got my work schedule for next week. When I came home my mom was on my case about what I'm going to do next year and about how my high school marks aren't good enough to do anything with my life and I need to upgrade them next year if I can't get into anything worthwhile. Then my dad called and was on my case about getting a good job this summer becauser I should start doing something more with my life. I'm looking forward to tonight, it should hopefully be a nice distraction. So then my mom had me go to the radiology clinic in Southcenter to talk to the technicians because it will look good on my application to NAIT (yeah, she wants me to go to Edmonton next year if I can). On the way out I convinced her to buy me another coffee, and we ran into Brandon at SEARS so I talked to him for a bit. He met my brother for the first time, it was cool. I need to work on my essays (english, philosophy and sociology), my poster (english), and read stuff (econ and english). Blah.
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
The Suicide Machines - I Never Promised You A Rose Garden
I had two coffee's today, my stomach is sore. I was going to make myself some soup for dinner but I don't feel like cooking so I'll probably have water for dinner again tonight. I was supposed to work on my essay with Stephanie today, but she wasn't in class so I didn't bother to go looking for her. Instead I went to the mall and got myself my second coffee. Talked to Brandon for a bit, took part of his break with him, we had a walk down to center court and then went our seperate ways. I was feeling super heartsick this morning, mouthing the lyrics to a josie and the pussycats song all the way from southland to mount royal... I took a two hour nap in the parking lot before I went to class, it kinda helped. "And there's a pain in my stomach from another sleepless binge / And I struggled to get myself up again / I wanna hang onto something / That won't break away or fall apart / Like the pieces of my heart / And globes and maps are all around me now / I wanna feel you breathe me / Globes and maps I see surround you here / Why won't you believe me? / Globes and maps they charter your way back home / Do you wanna leave or somethin?" boo-urns. I dislike this greatly, but there's nothing I or anyone else can do. So I leave you with this (I stole it from Kendall's blog):
10 People you want to spend more time with:
1) Kim
2) Danny
3) Kristy
4) Ryan M
5) Brandon
6) Kiersten
7) Sarah
8) Melissa
9) Chelsea
10) Malloreigh
09 Things you're looking forward to:
1) Tomorrow night
2) Summer
3) August
4) Graduation from my selected major
5) moving out
6) Kiersten calling
7) Sunday
8) Working out tonight
9) Playing my guitar again
08 Things you like to wear:
1) My wristband
2) boxers
3) eyeliner
4) lip gloss
5) little boy's tee-shirts
6) cord blazers
7) blue jeans
8) my vans
07 Things that annoy you:
1) waking up to find out your arm has gone completely limp... again.
2) when you drop your pick into your guitar
3) clingy people
4) people who give you dirty looks for no good reason
5) when people ask "what's wrong" when nothing's wrong
6) unclear assignments
7) fat on my body
06 Things you say most everyday:
1) "I'm tired."
2) "I take great pride in that fact."
3) "Hello."
4) "I'm going to go work out now."
5) "This water tastes like beer."
6) "Large Mocca."
05 Things you do everyday:
1) drink coffee
2) daydream
3) play my guitar and/or my bass
4) work out
5) listen to music
04 Bands/people you've been listening to a lot lately:
1) Matchbook Romance
2) The Ataris
3) Dashboard Confessional
4) My Chemical Romance
03 Movies you could watch over and over again:
1) The Matrix (the first one, I haven't seen any of the others and I don't intend to)
2) Bauty and the Beast
3) Harry Potter (any of them)
02 Of your favorite songs at the moment:
1) from autumn to ashes - short stories with tragic endings
2) the ataris - unopened letter to the world
01 Person you would spend the rest of your life with:
1) Most people know who this is, and I'm not going to say publicly in case he reads this... take a wild guess.
I had two coffee's today, my stomach is sore. I was going to make myself some soup for dinner but I don't feel like cooking so I'll probably have water for dinner again tonight. I was supposed to work on my essay with Stephanie today, but she wasn't in class so I didn't bother to go looking for her. Instead I went to the mall and got myself my second coffee. Talked to Brandon for a bit, took part of his break with him, we had a walk down to center court and then went our seperate ways. I was feeling super heartsick this morning, mouthing the lyrics to a josie and the pussycats song all the way from southland to mount royal... I took a two hour nap in the parking lot before I went to class, it kinda helped. "And there's a pain in my stomach from another sleepless binge / And I struggled to get myself up again / I wanna hang onto something / That won't break away or fall apart / Like the pieces of my heart / And globes and maps are all around me now / I wanna feel you breathe me / Globes and maps I see surround you here / Why won't you believe me? / Globes and maps they charter your way back home / Do you wanna leave or somethin?" boo-urns. I dislike this greatly, but there's nothing I or anyone else can do. So I leave you with this (I stole it from Kendall's blog):
10 People you want to spend more time with:
1) Kim
2) Danny
3) Kristy
4) Ryan M
5) Brandon
6) Kiersten
7) Sarah
8) Melissa
9) Chelsea
10) Malloreigh
09 Things you're looking forward to:
1) Tomorrow night
2) Summer
3) August
4) Graduation from my selected major
5) moving out
6) Kiersten calling
7) Sunday
8) Working out tonight
9) Playing my guitar again
08 Things you like to wear:
1) My wristband
2) boxers
3) eyeliner
4) lip gloss
5) little boy's tee-shirts
6) cord blazers
7) blue jeans
8) my vans
07 Things that annoy you:
1) waking up to find out your arm has gone completely limp... again.
2) when you drop your pick into your guitar
3) clingy people
4) people who give you dirty looks for no good reason
5) when people ask "what's wrong" when nothing's wrong
6) unclear assignments
7) fat on my body
06 Things you say most everyday:
1) "I'm tired."
2) "I take great pride in that fact."
3) "Hello."
4) "I'm going to go work out now."
5) "This water tastes like beer."
6) "Large Mocca."
05 Things you do everyday:
1) drink coffee
2) daydream
3) play my guitar and/or my bass
4) work out
5) listen to music
04 Bands/people you've been listening to a lot lately:
1) Matchbook Romance
2) The Ataris
3) Dashboard Confessional
4) My Chemical Romance
03 Movies you could watch over and over again:
1) The Matrix (the first one, I haven't seen any of the others and I don't intend to)
2) Bauty and the Beast
3) Harry Potter (any of them)
02 Of your favorite songs at the moment:
1) from autumn to ashes - short stories with tragic endings
2) the ataris - unopened letter to the world
01 Person you would spend the rest of your life with:
1) Most people know who this is, and I'm not going to say publicly in case he reads this... take a wild guess.
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
Alexisonfire - Water Wings
Filming today had to be re-scheduled due to Kim passing out in Sociology class. That scares me FEEL BETTER KIM! I really hope she's okay and that this was a one-time thing. Warren called and told me, he sounded so worried. Then a few minutes later Kim called my cell. She sounds so tired (not that I blame her after passing out). Man, I'm still going to meet Candy at 5-ish at southcenter and give them scripts because, hopeflly, we'll be filming saturday.
Filming today had to be re-scheduled due to Kim passing out in Sociology class. That scares me FEEL BETTER KIM! I really hope she's okay and that this was a one-time thing. Warren called and told me, he sounded so worried. Then a few minutes later Kim called my cell. She sounds so tired (not that I blame her after passing out). Man, I'm still going to meet Candy at 5-ish at southcenter and give them scripts because, hopeflly, we'll be filming saturday.
The Sundays - On Earth
ha ha ha, today my English prof had a "word" with me because she thought I was "cross" with her. Silly prof. I was so tempted to say, "no... I'm not mad at you, it's more like free floating anxiety... except replace anxiety with anger. See, I'm not mad at anyone, I'm mad at everyone *nod* it happens sometimes." That would have been amusing, but I didn't. I just assured her that I wasn't mad at her and was on my way. Just because I'm not my, "normal cheerful self" as she put it, doesn't mean that I'm mad at anyone. It just HAPPENS sometimes. I'm cheerful for a long time, I work to keep that smile on my face, in my eyes, that happiness in my voice. Sometimes I just get tired of it and can't keep it up anymore and then I'm transparent for a few days and then woo! back to being cheerful again. Of course, I only let myself become transparent in certain situations where I don't think people will notice, since they don't know me; like school, on the bus, certain far corners of the mall... I'm running out of places to let go actually... if people are noticing at school. It's like grade twelve all over again, when my Art teacher was noticing when I didn't even think I was letting go... that was FUN. I remember in elementary school when home was my safe place, but then I just got in trouble because when I let go there was so much anger inside. So I learned to keep it in here too. Then I took it onto the court, but that was cut short because of injury. Then I took it to my music and my writing but now I feel like that's just not enough because I'm not good enough at writing music or journal entries or songs or poems to do it any justice. Sometimes I just need to scream... and I can't because I'm gagged by what I've become, by what I'm trying to be. Sometimes I just feel so helpless...
ha ha ha, today my English prof had a "word" with me because she thought I was "cross" with her. Silly prof. I was so tempted to say, "no... I'm not mad at you, it's more like free floating anxiety... except replace anxiety with anger. See, I'm not mad at anyone, I'm mad at everyone *nod* it happens sometimes." That would have been amusing, but I didn't. I just assured her that I wasn't mad at her and was on my way. Just because I'm not my, "normal cheerful self" as she put it, doesn't mean that I'm mad at anyone. It just HAPPENS sometimes. I'm cheerful for a long time, I work to keep that smile on my face, in my eyes, that happiness in my voice. Sometimes I just get tired of it and can't keep it up anymore and then I'm transparent for a few days and then woo! back to being cheerful again. Of course, I only let myself become transparent in certain situations where I don't think people will notice, since they don't know me; like school, on the bus, certain far corners of the mall... I'm running out of places to let go actually... if people are noticing at school. It's like grade twelve all over again, when my Art teacher was noticing when I didn't even think I was letting go... that was FUN. I remember in elementary school when home was my safe place, but then I just got in trouble because when I let go there was so much anger inside. So I learned to keep it in here too. Then I took it onto the court, but that was cut short because of injury. Then I took it to my music and my writing but now I feel like that's just not enough because I'm not good enough at writing music or journal entries or songs or poems to do it any justice. Sometimes I just need to scream... and I can't because I'm gagged by what I've become, by what I'm trying to be. Sometimes I just feel so helpless...
Monday, March 22, 2004
Silverchair - Dearest Helpless
So I guess things aren't so bad. It's amazing what a little coffee, some guitar action and a cute boy in my basement will do for my mood. Actually, it's amazing what boys will do for my mood. If it wasn't for them I'd seriously go crazy, not that I need them because I'm boy crazy or anything, they're just so much more fun to be with than girls. They're funner to hang out with, to just sit around with. I dunno, boys make me happy, I need to see more of them... like all the time. Not the same one all the time, I'd get bored and annoyed; I just want to hang out with a big group of cool guys and a few cool girls too in a house with nerf and music, and I'd be in heaven. Now, if only we could cut the annoying little things called "work" and "school" out of our lives and just live happily with our nerf, music, video games, movies and eachother's company. Yes, that would be nice. I really don't like this whole "having to do something with your life" thing, it's very stressful.
You are a silver dragon. The rarest kind of dragon.
YOu are noble yet avoid humans as much as
possible. You are the guardian of the
defensless and you rule the skies.
Which Dragon resides in your soul? (cool pictures!)
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You are the troubled ghost of wings. You wonder
around looking for freinds and being beautiful.
You are graceful and full of untapped love and
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What kind of element fey are you? (PRETTY PICS)
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So I guess things aren't so bad. It's amazing what a little coffee, some guitar action and a cute boy in my basement will do for my mood. Actually, it's amazing what boys will do for my mood. If it wasn't for them I'd seriously go crazy, not that I need them because I'm boy crazy or anything, they're just so much more fun to be with than girls. They're funner to hang out with, to just sit around with. I dunno, boys make me happy, I need to see more of them... like all the time. Not the same one all the time, I'd get bored and annoyed; I just want to hang out with a big group of cool guys and a few cool girls too in a house with nerf and music, and I'd be in heaven. Now, if only we could cut the annoying little things called "work" and "school" out of our lives and just live happily with our nerf, music, video games, movies and eachother's company. Yes, that would be nice. I really don't like this whole "having to do something with your life" thing, it's very stressful.
You are a silver dragon. The rarest kind of dragon.
YOu are noble yet avoid humans as much as
possible. You are the guardian of the
defensless and you rule the skies.
Which Dragon resides in your soul? (cool pictures!)
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Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most
of them go, are all compatabile creatures, but
Pure ones simply are symbols of God. Pure
Angels always appear when a child is born, when
a rainbow is seen, or when someone shares their
first kiss. They never grow old, an can appear
in the shape of a naked woman with white, bold
wings. Pure angels are the carriers of god, and
show their love to everyone in the world.
What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
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You are the troubled ghost of wings. You wonder
around looking for freinds and being beautiful.
You are graceful and full of untapped love and
talent. Open yourself up. You don't have to
rate my quiz, you are troubled.
What kind of element fey are you? (PRETTY PICS)
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Korn - It's Gonna Go Away
I feel so worthless, I can't do anything right... I have no ambition to do anything with my life. Seriously, I just don't want to do anything anymore. Whatever, I should just give up, everything. I allways fail anyways. I got a letter from SAIT today, why don't YOU guess what the result was? Seriously, stupiud things like this shouldn't bug me; I shouldn't want to give up every time I hit a little bump in the road, but I do. I'm so immature it sickens me. Yeah, the tears are coming, but I won't cry because it would make my makeup streak, and then people would know. That's all keeping me from crying lately, makeup. It seems kind of unconcious, on days I get like this I've allways put makeup on. It's like I know I'm going to get bummed out and put on the makeup to keep me from breaking, to hold me together. Maybe if I wear enough I can make a mask to hide behind, become the person I despise yet want to be so bad it hurts... I can't eat, I'm just not hungry. I tried but no... I had a little bit of KD today and it just made me sick, I still feel like I'm going to throw up. I guess I'll just stick to liquids for awhile, it's not like I haven't survived on those before.
I feel so worthless, I can't do anything right... I have no ambition to do anything with my life. Seriously, I just don't want to do anything anymore. Whatever, I should just give up, everything. I allways fail anyways. I got a letter from SAIT today, why don't YOU guess what the result was? Seriously, stupiud things like this shouldn't bug me; I shouldn't want to give up every time I hit a little bump in the road, but I do. I'm so immature it sickens me. Yeah, the tears are coming, but I won't cry because it would make my makeup streak, and then people would know. That's all keeping me from crying lately, makeup. It seems kind of unconcious, on days I get like this I've allways put makeup on. It's like I know I'm going to get bummed out and put on the makeup to keep me from breaking, to hold me together. Maybe if I wear enough I can make a mask to hide behind, become the person I despise yet want to be so bad it hurts... I can't eat, I'm just not hungry. I tried but no... I had a little bit of KD today and it just made me sick, I still feel like I'm going to throw up. I guess I'll just stick to liquids for awhile, it's not like I haven't survived on those before.
Saturday, March 20, 2004
Count The Stars - Say Anything
Emo! You're very in touch with your emotions and
that's what I like about you! It's all about
the music for you... I have pity for your
tortured soul...you're just like me...
What genre of rock are you?
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You are a human shadow. If a loved one needs you,
you are always right at his or her heels! Your
deep social connection with human beings
produces your qualities of genuine caring and
charisma. However, at times you are naive to
the true nature of your loved ones. Remember
that humans' gift of free will does not always
lead them in wise directions. But your essence
of love and friendship represent the other
precious gifts of humanity. Overall you are a
strikingly valuable and innocent being who has
a lot to give.(please rate my quiz cuz it took
me for freaking ever to create)
What Kind of Shadow Are You? (with gorgeous pics)
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... I've posted too many times today.
Emo! You're very in touch with your emotions and
that's what I like about you! It's all about
the music for you... I have pity for your
tortured soul...you're just like me...
What genre of rock are you?
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You are a human shadow. If a loved one needs you,
you are always right at his or her heels! Your
deep social connection with human beings
produces your qualities of genuine caring and
charisma. However, at times you are naive to
the true nature of your loved ones. Remember
that humans' gift of free will does not always
lead them in wise directions. But your essence
of love and friendship represent the other
precious gifts of humanity. Overall you are a
strikingly valuable and innocent being who has
a lot to give.(please rate my quiz cuz it took
me for freaking ever to create)
What Kind of Shadow Are You? (with gorgeous pics)
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... I've posted too many times today.
Nirvana - Lithium
My dad took a ride in the beast today, he said I'm not allowed to drive it anymore until he figures out what's wrong with it and fixes it... because it sounds REALLY bad. So if I'm going to Dixon's tonight I'll need to find myself a ride, both there and back. Frick, if Melissa/Trevor don't come through my plans for tonight will most likely be shot. I hate plans being shot. Work was busy, the whole time I just wanted to go home, but I needed the money so I stayed. I got Sarah to switch shifts with me so I'm working Friday and she;s working Thursday. Yay! Now I get to see the old Carrol group, woo! I loff you Malloreigh.
My dad took a ride in the beast today, he said I'm not allowed to drive it anymore until he figures out what's wrong with it and fixes it... because it sounds REALLY bad. So if I'm going to Dixon's tonight I'll need to find myself a ride, both there and back. Frick, if Melissa/Trevor don't come through my plans for tonight will most likely be shot. I hate plans being shot. Work was busy, the whole time I just wanted to go home, but I needed the money so I stayed. I got Sarah to switch shifts with me so I'm working Friday and she;s working Thursday. Yay! Now I get to see the old Carrol group, woo! I loff you Malloreigh.
The Wallflowers - Bleeders
So last night perked me up a tad, although my dad was being stupid which brought the whole night down a few notches. After work and changing plans a few times, Melissa and I headed to Ryan's place and met up with Ryan, Kiersten and Trevor. We were going to make them cookies, but ended up going to Wendy's instead. When we got back from Wendy's Chris R, Stel, Stel's girlfriend, Stel's girlfriend's baby, Brandon, Jeff, and some guy I didn't know had shown up. So Stel, his girlfriend and her kid left again shortly after and I played some video games with the guys until we got sick of those. Then we just sat around and talked. Ryan, Melissa and Trevor were up in Ryan's room. It was amusing when they came down and Ryan was like, "Alison! What're you doing down here?" and I was like, "Hanging out with these kids." and he was like, "So you ditched us, thanks." lol. They were really pulling for us to stay late or stay over or whatever, but my parent's wouldn't agree (stupid parent's) and Melissa's were in a bad mood so she couldn't. My dad said I had to be home by one, because that was my curfew (I don't have a curfew if you talk to my mom) he's such an ass sometimes... no wait, all the time. Anyways, work called and asked me to work 1:30-5:30 today, so I suppose I'm doing that. I may head to Dixon's later tonight, if I feel rich enough to waste gas. And look, I did a quiz because it's been awhile.
You have a kind soul! What can be better than
cooking lemon-pastries? Only helping out sick
kids of course! Congratulations, you have a
kind soul. Known for your purity and goodness
you follow your heart and your brain. The path
you seem to talk on is golden, and your touch
can make others forget about their pain. Your
always the one who donates to charity, feeds
the squirrels in the park, and volunteers down
at the shelter. Youre determined to make the
world a better place, and be sweet and
thoughtful everywhere. You are probably
multi-talented, and others love being around
you. Be careful though. Dont let them take
advantage of you.
What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
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So last night perked me up a tad, although my dad was being stupid which brought the whole night down a few notches. After work and changing plans a few times, Melissa and I headed to Ryan's place and met up with Ryan, Kiersten and Trevor. We were going to make them cookies, but ended up going to Wendy's instead. When we got back from Wendy's Chris R, Stel, Stel's girlfriend, Stel's girlfriend's baby, Brandon, Jeff, and some guy I didn't know had shown up. So Stel, his girlfriend and her kid left again shortly after and I played some video games with the guys until we got sick of those. Then we just sat around and talked. Ryan, Melissa and Trevor were up in Ryan's room. It was amusing when they came down and Ryan was like, "Alison! What're you doing down here?" and I was like, "Hanging out with these kids." and he was like, "So you ditched us, thanks." lol. They were really pulling for us to stay late or stay over or whatever, but my parent's wouldn't agree (stupid parent's) and Melissa's were in a bad mood so she couldn't. My dad said I had to be home by one, because that was my curfew (I don't have a curfew if you talk to my mom) he's such an ass sometimes... no wait, all the time. Anyways, work called and asked me to work 1:30-5:30 today, so I suppose I'm doing that. I may head to Dixon's later tonight, if I feel rich enough to waste gas. And look, I did a quiz because it's been awhile.
You have a kind soul! What can be better than
cooking lemon-pastries? Only helping out sick
kids of course! Congratulations, you have a
kind soul. Known for your purity and goodness
you follow your heart and your brain. The path
you seem to talk on is golden, and your touch
can make others forget about their pain. Your
always the one who donates to charity, feeds
the squirrels in the park, and volunteers down
at the shelter. Youre determined to make the
world a better place, and be sweet and
thoughtful everywhere. You are probably
multi-talented, and others love being around
you. Be careful though. Dont let them take
advantage of you.
What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
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Friday, March 19, 2004
Streetlight Manifesto - Everything Goes Numb
It's just been a bad 24 hours or so. I'm sure you're competent enough to read back over yesterday's entries, saving me the task of re-typing those events. So I'll start when I woke up this morning. I woke up feeling sore and disgusting (since sleeping on the floor in the basement will do that to you). What woke me up? Not my alarm clock, no. For some reason my grandparent's needed my alarm clock so I had to leave it in my room. It was my mom yelling down the stairs. No biggie, I'd asked her to wake me up. It was what she was yelling that get to me. "Alison! I forgot about you and now you're late for class!" This is the THIRD time this week I've missed Sociology. That means I've missed all my classes this week, and an entire topic. I have a unit exam next class and I don't even know what topic I missed so I can study it. I'm royally screwed on that end. So I was making myself some tuna for lunch and we didn't have any green onions (tuna's soo gross without those) so I left without a lunch and without having had anything to eat, forgot my water bottle at home and ended up wasting $1.75 on bottled water. I got my econ midterm back today and although I got either the third or fourth best mark in the class, it was only a 77. I needed way better than that to bring my mark up, so I was kinda upset by that and... yeah. It's not really that bad, my 24 hours, I'm just being oversensitive to everything lately. I mean, I started crying and had to run to the bathroom this morning when we didn't have any green onion. That's not a good sign when something that small can set you off. I'm just hoping that once I get my coffee (since it was friday I didn't have time to get that before my sister got off school) things will start looking up, and that I'll have an okay shift at work and do something fun tonight. If I spent tonight at home... well, I just don't know. I'd probably just be really bored and pissed off and upset and end up playing DDR until I hurt myself or something. Then I'd be mad because I couldn't take it. I dunno, I'm rambling now, pay no attention.
It's just been a bad 24 hours or so. I'm sure you're competent enough to read back over yesterday's entries, saving me the task of re-typing those events. So I'll start when I woke up this morning. I woke up feeling sore and disgusting (since sleeping on the floor in the basement will do that to you). What woke me up? Not my alarm clock, no. For some reason my grandparent's needed my alarm clock so I had to leave it in my room. It was my mom yelling down the stairs. No biggie, I'd asked her to wake me up. It was what she was yelling that get to me. "Alison! I forgot about you and now you're late for class!" This is the THIRD time this week I've missed Sociology. That means I've missed all my classes this week, and an entire topic. I have a unit exam next class and I don't even know what topic I missed so I can study it. I'm royally screwed on that end. So I was making myself some tuna for lunch and we didn't have any green onions (tuna's soo gross without those) so I left without a lunch and without having had anything to eat, forgot my water bottle at home and ended up wasting $1.75 on bottled water. I got my econ midterm back today and although I got either the third or fourth best mark in the class, it was only a 77. I needed way better than that to bring my mark up, so I was kinda upset by that and... yeah. It's not really that bad, my 24 hours, I'm just being oversensitive to everything lately. I mean, I started crying and had to run to the bathroom this morning when we didn't have any green onion. That's not a good sign when something that small can set you off. I'm just hoping that once I get my coffee (since it was friday I didn't have time to get that before my sister got off school) things will start looking up, and that I'll have an okay shift at work and do something fun tonight. If I spent tonight at home... well, I just don't know. I'd probably just be really bored and pissed off and upset and end up playing DDR until I hurt myself or something. Then I'd be mad because I couldn't take it. I dunno, I'm rambling now, pay no attention.
Thursday, March 18, 2004
Rise Against - Like The Angel
I hate school, I should just drop out. Screw it. I got a freakin' 32% on my econ assignment because I don't get it! It's just not understandable in the least! I hate this so much. I'm going to go play DDR until I pass out in my basement, I have to sleep there anyways, my parent's kicked me out of my room so my grandparent's can stay over. Whatever. No one wants me around, I should just dissapear, I'm no good at anything anways ><;. And no worries, I know I'll be over it by tomorrow evening, unless I have a ba day at work or something. Ah well, I should be over it by 2 am saturday... hopefully.
I hate school, I should just drop out. Screw it. I got a freakin' 32% on my econ assignment because I don't get it! It's just not understandable in the least! I hate this so much. I'm going to go play DDR until I pass out in my basement, I have to sleep there anyways, my parent's kicked me out of my room so my grandparent's can stay over. Whatever. No one wants me around, I should just dissapear, I'm no good at anything anways ><;. And no worries, I know I'll be over it by tomorrow evening, unless I have a ba day at work or something. Ah well, I should be over it by 2 am saturday... hopefully.
My Chemical Romance - Headfirst for Halos
Well, firstly and foremost I HATE TELUS INTERNET it's been slow for days and really pissing me off. Secondly, here's yesterday's entry (saved in word):
The Juliana Theory – This is not a Love Song
I woke up two hours late today, and missed Sociology for the second time in a row. That’s probably not too good. My prof saw me today too, waiting outside my Philosophy class. She was all like, “Hi! Wait… Where were you today? I could have used your biological influences.” All I could say was, “I… uh, slept in.” What a poor excuse, but it was true. In Philosophy I tabbed out a song I had written, it was fun. And yeah, today was very much an “Oh ,man, everyone’s at the mall today” day. While getting my coffee I saw Melissa, Brandon, Trevor, Mike G, Scott and Josh A. Mike invited me to the Bull and Finch tonight, so unless I get on a roll with the homework situation (which is highly doubtful) I’ll show up.
And… I stole this from Kendall’s blog:
X is true
(_) I have never been drunk
(x) I never have smoked pot
(_) I never have kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) I never have kissed a member of the same sex
(x) I never crashed a friend's car
(x) I have never been to Japan
(_) I never rode in a taxi
(x) I never had anal sex
(_) I never have been in love
(x) I never have had sex in public
(x) I never have been dumped
(x) I never shoplifted
(x) I never have been fired
(x) I never have been in a fist fight
(x) I never had a 3-some
(x) I never snuck out of my parent's house
(x) I never have been tied up (sexually)
(x) I never been caught masturbating
(x) I never pissed on myself (unless baby-hood counts)
(x) I never had sex with a member of the same sex
(x) I never have been arrested
(x) I never made out with a stranger
(x) I never stole anything from my job
(x) I never celebrated New Year's in Time Square
(x) I never went on a blind date
(_) I never lied to a friend
(_) I never had a crush on a teacher
(x) I never celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans
(x) I never have been to Europe
(_) I never skipped school
(x) I never slept with a co-worker
(x) I never have been fisted and/or have fisted anyone
(x) I never have thrown up in a bar
(_) I never have purposely set myself on fire
(x) I never have eaten sushi
(x) I never have been snowboarding
(_) I never have been happy with myself
(x) I never have met a movie star
(x) I never had sex in a pool
(_) I never went to a prom [grad counts, right?]
(x) I never bungee jumped
(_) I never have been to a pop concert
(x) I never have dated someone for over a year
(x) I never sold naked pictures of myself
(x) I never ate a mango
(x) I never watched any of the godfather movies
(x) I never went scuba diving
(_) I never wanted to change myself
(x) I never smoked cigarettes
(_) I never wanted to run away from home
(x) I never had an STD
(_) I never cheated on an exam
(x) I never faked an orgasm
(x) I never tortured small animals for pleasure
(x) I never tortured other people for pleasure
(x) I never gave a fake name on an application
(x) I never bought someone flowers
(x) I never received flowers
(x) I never cheated on my taxes
(x) I never attempted suicide
(x) I never cheated on a partner
(x) I never thought about cheating on a partner
(_) I never lied to my parents
(x) I never got a tattoo
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
And now for today's entry. Well, I went to the Bull and Finch last night for a bit. Most of the people ditched out though, and the people there were just talking about their cars. Not too terribly entertaining. The bathrooms there are down a flight of stairs, which was kind of scarry but an adventure all the same. Got home not too late, worked out (first time in awhile, and it actually wasn't so bad). I've decided I need to make myself hot, so I'm set on working out every day from now on. I need to call Malloreigh tonight to see if anything's going on and I may be going to Ryan's with Melissa after we get off work tomorrow. My grandparent's are over again, it's annoying because they take my bedroom and I end up having to sleep on the floor in the basement. I think they're planning on staying awhile too FRICK! Maybe my strange pictures on the walls will freak them out and make them leave sooner. I can just see it now. "Sherman, why are there pictures of half naked boys in beds on Alison's wall? And what's up with this picture of ALCOHOL?! Alcohol's the devil. And oh, what's this? a GIRL in a sexy pose on a bed? A coloured girl even? My heavens, we have to get out of this place." I'm sorry, I just dislike my dad's parent's. They're so old-fashioned and prejudiced. I need to get out of this house...
Well, firstly and foremost I HATE TELUS INTERNET it's been slow for days and really pissing me off. Secondly, here's yesterday's entry (saved in word):
The Juliana Theory – This is not a Love Song
I woke up two hours late today, and missed Sociology for the second time in a row. That’s probably not too good. My prof saw me today too, waiting outside my Philosophy class. She was all like, “Hi! Wait… Where were you today? I could have used your biological influences.” All I could say was, “I… uh, slept in.” What a poor excuse, but it was true. In Philosophy I tabbed out a song I had written, it was fun. And yeah, today was very much an “Oh ,man, everyone’s at the mall today” day. While getting my coffee I saw Melissa, Brandon, Trevor, Mike G, Scott and Josh A. Mike invited me to the Bull and Finch tonight, so unless I get on a roll with the homework situation (which is highly doubtful) I’ll show up.
And… I stole this from Kendall’s blog:
X is true
(_) I have never been drunk
(x) I never have smoked pot
(_) I never have kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) I never have kissed a member of the same sex
(x) I never crashed a friend's car
(x) I have never been to Japan
(_) I never rode in a taxi
(x) I never had anal sex
(_) I never have been in love
(x) I never have had sex in public
(x) I never have been dumped
(x) I never shoplifted
(x) I never have been fired
(x) I never have been in a fist fight
(x) I never had a 3-some
(x) I never snuck out of my parent's house
(x) I never have been tied up (sexually)
(x) I never been caught masturbating
(x) I never pissed on myself (unless baby-hood counts)
(x) I never had sex with a member of the same sex
(x) I never have been arrested
(x) I never made out with a stranger
(x) I never stole anything from my job
(x) I never celebrated New Year's in Time Square
(x) I never went on a blind date
(_) I never lied to a friend
(_) I never had a crush on a teacher
(x) I never celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans
(x) I never have been to Europe
(_) I never skipped school
(x) I never slept with a co-worker
(x) I never have been fisted and/or have fisted anyone
(x) I never have thrown up in a bar
(_) I never have purposely set myself on fire
(x) I never have eaten sushi
(x) I never have been snowboarding
(_) I never have been happy with myself
(x) I never have met a movie star
(x) I never had sex in a pool
(_) I never went to a prom [grad counts, right?]
(x) I never bungee jumped
(_) I never have been to a pop concert
(x) I never have dated someone for over a year
(x) I never sold naked pictures of myself
(x) I never ate a mango
(x) I never watched any of the godfather movies
(x) I never went scuba diving
(_) I never wanted to change myself
(x) I never smoked cigarettes
(_) I never wanted to run away from home
(x) I never had an STD
(_) I never cheated on an exam
(x) I never faked an orgasm
(x) I never tortured small animals for pleasure
(x) I never tortured other people for pleasure
(x) I never gave a fake name on an application
(x) I never bought someone flowers
(x) I never received flowers
(x) I never cheated on my taxes
(x) I never attempted suicide
(x) I never cheated on a partner
(x) I never thought about cheating on a partner
(_) I never lied to my parents
(x) I never got a tattoo
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
And now for today's entry. Well, I went to the Bull and Finch last night for a bit. Most of the people ditched out though, and the people there were just talking about their cars. Not too terribly entertaining. The bathrooms there are down a flight of stairs, which was kind of scarry but an adventure all the same. Got home not too late, worked out (first time in awhile, and it actually wasn't so bad). I've decided I need to make myself hot, so I'm set on working out every day from now on. I need to call Malloreigh tonight to see if anything's going on and I may be going to Ryan's with Melissa after we get off work tomorrow. My grandparent's are over again, it's annoying because they take my bedroom and I end up having to sleep on the floor in the basement. I think they're planning on staying awhile too FRICK! Maybe my strange pictures on the walls will freak them out and make them leave sooner. I can just see it now. "Sherman, why are there pictures of half naked boys in beds on Alison's wall? And what's up with this picture of ALCOHOL?! Alcohol's the devil. And oh, what's this? a GIRL in a sexy pose on a bed? A coloured girl even? My heavens, we have to get out of this place." I'm sorry, I just dislike my dad's parent's. They're so old-fashioned and prejudiced. I need to get out of this house...
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
Drowning Pool - Tear Away
So I finished my homework last night (amazing, I know) it took a lot of concentration and effort. I hate effort ><;. but yeah, did my presenation in English today, I think it went okay *hopes* I really need to write more scenes... it's just that lately my fingers haven't been wanting to write, they've been wanting to play music. It's like they're just acheing to get something out and won't be satisfied until they get the sound they want down perfectly. I'm working on it. Which reminds me, Lesley I've re-written the entire song that you realkly didn't like. It's easy enough for me to play half-assed and sing at the same time, so you should find it a breeze. I really need to get together with NOTA because I've written the lyrics and guitar for that song, but I haven't made a bass line yet that fits with the new guitar part. Please you guys? Let's get together, even just to jam. But not in the next two weeks. I must lock myself in my house and study... I have exams, term papers, projects and other due dates all appreaching quickly. Sometimes I think maybe I'm overcommited, but then I remember that I like living that way.
So I finished my homework last night (amazing, I know) it took a lot of concentration and effort. I hate effort ><;. but yeah, did my presenation in English today, I think it went okay *hopes* I really need to write more scenes... it's just that lately my fingers haven't been wanting to write, they've been wanting to play music. It's like they're just acheing to get something out and won't be satisfied until they get the sound they want down perfectly. I'm working on it. Which reminds me, Lesley I've re-written the entire song that you realkly didn't like. It's easy enough for me to play half-assed and sing at the same time, so you should find it a breeze. I really need to get together with NOTA because I've written the lyrics and guitar for that song, but I haven't made a bass line yet that fits with the new guitar part. Please you guys? Let's get together, even just to jam. But not in the next two weeks. I must lock myself in my house and study... I have exams, term papers, projects and other due dates all appreaching quickly. Sometimes I think maybe I'm overcommited, but then I remember that I like living that way.
Monday, March 15, 2004
Fugazi - Give me the Cure
The circus yesterday was amazing (thank you for the ticket Ryan ^^;) but the elephants and horses looked so sad *tear*. It was still fun though, Kiersten and I were making fun of the light toys they were selling and having fun watching the boys in tights. By the end of it I was kind of sick though; far too much sugar. On the train ride home Ryan kept playing with a light up ball his mom gave him, it was amusing you just couldn't... look... away... ooh, shiny. So yeah. I drove to church right after and met up with people as mass was getting out. Convinced Leanne, David and Sineade to come to BPs where I got more sugar (mmm...) and Leanne was frightened by the waitor. Today I skipped my first class ever at college. I know, so bad. But I'm pretty sure it was just a movie, and I really needed to study for my econ midterm (which I'm pretty sure I did horridly on). So after classes I headed to Southcenter and visited Anne and Brandon while I got my coffee. Picked up the sister from school and now I'm here, blogging, writing a response to an article form english, going to get some of my film onto VHS later on (scenes 5&6 I think) for my presentation tomorrow, thinking about what I can make myself for supper tonight. I need to start working out and eating healthier, I've been feeling chubby. I think I shall basically lock myself in my house for the next two weeks, I have so much homework and studying to do. Actually, it would be more effective if I locked away my guitar and bass and computer... but then I'd go mad.
The circus yesterday was amazing (thank you for the ticket Ryan ^^;) but the elephants and horses looked so sad *tear*. It was still fun though, Kiersten and I were making fun of the light toys they were selling and having fun watching the boys in tights. By the end of it I was kind of sick though; far too much sugar. On the train ride home Ryan kept playing with a light up ball his mom gave him, it was amusing you just couldn't... look... away... ooh, shiny. So yeah. I drove to church right after and met up with people as mass was getting out. Convinced Leanne, David and Sineade to come to BPs where I got more sugar (mmm...) and Leanne was frightened by the waitor. Today I skipped my first class ever at college. I know, so bad. But I'm pretty sure it was just a movie, and I really needed to study for my econ midterm (which I'm pretty sure I did horridly on). So after classes I headed to Southcenter and visited Anne and Brandon while I got my coffee. Picked up the sister from school and now I'm here, blogging, writing a response to an article form english, going to get some of my film onto VHS later on (scenes 5&6 I think) for my presentation tomorrow, thinking about what I can make myself for supper tonight. I need to start working out and eating healthier, I've been feeling chubby. I think I shall basically lock myself in my house for the next two weeks, I have so much homework and studying to do. Actually, it would be more effective if I locked away my guitar and bass and computer... but then I'd go mad.
Sunday, March 14, 2004
Simon and Garfunkle - Feelin' Groovy
So yesterday got better. I was pissed off and kind of upset and stuff when I came online at first. Then I talked to Seth. He's such an amusing guy (and if you actually read this, thank you. you cheered me up so much). Then Candy came over and we wandered through Bonavista until shortly after midnight just talking and stuff, hit up the Mac's and got some slurpage at midnight then went back to my place for some guitar and video game fun. I went to noon mass today because I'm going to the circus tonight and can't make mass... and I have to make myself something to eat before I leave... hmm... after mass I bumped into Michelle and Anita and Celine and Leanne and Colum (sp?) it was weird, they're usuaully at 7:30. heh. And the old people I was sitting beside were nice. They asked me what I was up to this year after mass ended. So yeah, after chatting it up at the church for awhile I headed to safeway and got some groceries and a slurpy (I'm making the most of this day, okay?) and now... I'm here. I should be studying econ seeing as I have a midterm tomorrow and I don't know anything... I should be making myself something to eat because all I've had today is slurpy and a bacon sandwich. But yeah... I'll do it later... (such the procrastinator).
So yesterday got better. I was pissed off and kind of upset and stuff when I came online at first. Then I talked to Seth. He's such an amusing guy (and if you actually read this, thank you. you cheered me up so much). Then Candy came over and we wandered through Bonavista until shortly after midnight just talking and stuff, hit up the Mac's and got some slurpage at midnight then went back to my place for some guitar and video game fun. I went to noon mass today because I'm going to the circus tonight and can't make mass... and I have to make myself something to eat before I leave... hmm... after mass I bumped into Michelle and Anita and Celine and Leanne and Colum (sp?) it was weird, they're usuaully at 7:30. heh. And the old people I was sitting beside were nice. They asked me what I was up to this year after mass ended. So yeah, after chatting it up at the church for awhile I headed to safeway and got some groceries and a slurpy (I'm making the most of this day, okay?) and now... I'm here. I should be studying econ seeing as I have a midterm tomorrow and I don't know anything... I should be making myself something to eat because all I've had today is slurpy and a bacon sandwich. But yeah... I'll do it later... (such the procrastinator).
Saturday, March 13, 2004
Mudvayne - Death Blooms
It's messed up, how the littlest thing can set me off. Whatever. I don't care. Maybe I'll just go sit in the fire escape all night.
It's messed up, how the littlest thing can set me off. Whatever. I don't care. Maybe I'll just go sit in the fire escape all night.
Taking Back Sunday - Summer Stars
I'm teaching myself to play Matchbook Romance - Tiger Lilly on my guitar... THE HARD WAY! by NOT looking for tabs online and just playing along, but by listening to it and figuring it out. I'm pretty sure I've got it down... I just have to work at it and make sure it works before I can say I know it. I wanted to learn a Dashboard Confessional song... but then I came across this one and it was much easier at the beginning... which gave me the key signature and an idea of other chords that would be present in it. mmm... acoustic goodness. So when I woke up this morning I didn't even bother getting dressed before I grabbed my guitar and played some tunes... that's weird... I just reazlised that playing guitar was the last thing I did before I went to sleep and the first thing I did once I woke up. I'm hoping to get good at a handfull of acoustic songs before I go camping in late August. Camping is allways better with music... actually, everything's better with music but that's beside the point. I went to work today with sore fingers. I need to build up some calluses. Worked a THREE HOUR SHIFT. What a waste of effort. But I talked to Brandon on my way to work and my way home, and after work I ran into Ryan and Trevor and hung out with them for awhile. Getting together with Melissa, Trevor, Ryan, maybe some other people tonight either at Trevor's or my place. I should probably eat, but I'm guessing that once I get downstairs I'll just pick up my guitar again. I love that thing.
I'm teaching myself to play Matchbook Romance - Tiger Lilly on my guitar... THE HARD WAY! by NOT looking for tabs online and just playing along, but by listening to it and figuring it out. I'm pretty sure I've got it down... I just have to work at it and make sure it works before I can say I know it. I wanted to learn a Dashboard Confessional song... but then I came across this one and it was much easier at the beginning... which gave me the key signature and an idea of other chords that would be present in it. mmm... acoustic goodness. So when I woke up this morning I didn't even bother getting dressed before I grabbed my guitar and played some tunes... that's weird... I just reazlised that playing guitar was the last thing I did before I went to sleep and the first thing I did once I woke up. I'm hoping to get good at a handfull of acoustic songs before I go camping in late August. Camping is allways better with music... actually, everything's better with music but that's beside the point. I went to work today with sore fingers. I need to build up some calluses. Worked a THREE HOUR SHIFT. What a waste of effort. But I talked to Brandon on my way to work and my way home, and after work I ran into Ryan and Trevor and hung out with them for awhile. Getting together with Melissa, Trevor, Ryan, maybe some other people tonight either at Trevor's or my place. I should probably eat, but I'm guessing that once I get downstairs I'll just pick up my guitar again. I love that thing.
Friday, March 12, 2004
Josie and the Pussycats - You Don't See Me
That song allwys makes me sad... especially when I just speak the lyrics instead of singing them... it's enough to get me choked up. That's kind of pathetic. I'm feeling a little bit better cold-wise, but now have cramps to deal with for maybe... three days ><; ick. It's just one thing after another lately. I finished my laundry, woot! I really neede to do that, I had no clothes and was running out of socks and underwear ><; ewww... *cough* yeah. So tonight is dedicated to homework and getting better and maybe watching a movie by myself because I like to do that kind of thing. Tomorrow's dedicated to three hours of work, a bit of rest, driving Brandon home from work and picking Ryan up from his house and going to miss Melissa's for the evening. Sunday's church and the circus (should be quite the blast). I think this whole actually sleeping thing was good for me. I'd like to try it more, but seeing as I don't get things done when I sleep well... I'll have to go back to my old ways once I've recovered... until I get sick again. boo-urns. Anyhow, I should work on my english project and print out my econ assignment and... study *shudder*.
That song allwys makes me sad... especially when I just speak the lyrics instead of singing them... it's enough to get me choked up. That's kind of pathetic. I'm feeling a little bit better cold-wise, but now have cramps to deal with for maybe... three days ><; ick. It's just one thing after another lately. I finished my laundry, woot! I really neede to do that, I had no clothes and was running out of socks and underwear ><; ewww... *cough* yeah. So tonight is dedicated to homework and getting better and maybe watching a movie by myself because I like to do that kind of thing. Tomorrow's dedicated to three hours of work, a bit of rest, driving Brandon home from work and picking Ryan up from his house and going to miss Melissa's for the evening. Sunday's church and the circus (should be quite the blast). I think this whole actually sleeping thing was good for me. I'd like to try it more, but seeing as I don't get things done when I sleep well... I'll have to go back to my old ways once I've recovered... until I get sick again. boo-urns. Anyhow, I should work on my english project and print out my econ assignment and... study *shudder*.
Thursday, March 11, 2004
Dashboard Confessional - I Am Missing
I feel so much better now that I'm clean. mmm... showers.... I was feeling very greasy, because lately I've been getting home too late to shower and waking up too late to shower ><; sick sick sick... so after school/coffee today I put on a load of laundry and jumped in the shower. I've had a fairly productive day so far. So last night I went and passed out in my bed for an hour and a half, my mom woke me up shoertly before 7:30 so I could make it to church for the Mission Possible night. I dragged myself there and was feeling a bit better by the time it was over, you know, not quite so run down. Erin asked me to come for coffee afterwards when we were cleaning up the kitchen and then we got Ryan and this new guy Jared to come too. We went to Timmy-Ho's and had some tea and such, talked, it was good. Got home shortly before midnight and played my guitar until I fell asleep (I should probably stop doing that, it really messes with the tuning). Although I'm feeling better I still feel sick ><; stupid congestion and feeling overly warm and stomach ache... boo-urns. I should probably see if my laundry needs rotating.
I feel so much better now that I'm clean. mmm... showers.... I was feeling very greasy, because lately I've been getting home too late to shower and waking up too late to shower ><; sick sick sick... so after school/coffee today I put on a load of laundry and jumped in the shower. I've had a fairly productive day so far. So last night I went and passed out in my bed for an hour and a half, my mom woke me up shoertly before 7:30 so I could make it to church for the Mission Possible night. I dragged myself there and was feeling a bit better by the time it was over, you know, not quite so run down. Erin asked me to come for coffee afterwards when we were cleaning up the kitchen and then we got Ryan and this new guy Jared to come too. We went to Timmy-Ho's and had some tea and such, talked, it was good. Got home shortly before midnight and played my guitar until I fell asleep (I should probably stop doing that, it really messes with the tuning). Although I'm feeling better I still feel sick ><; stupid congestion and feeling overly warm and stomach ache... boo-urns. I should probably see if my laundry needs rotating.
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
Dido - The Closer You Get
I've felt sick for the past two days, if it wasn't obvious, but late last night I started feeling like I had a cold sick. Woke up this morning feeling dead... which reminds me of a song, "I woke up, this morning, I woke up dead today. I aged a thousand years, or more." - Jack Off Jill Anyways, that really had no significance. My throat's all sore and my nose is runny and I feel so weak... I was almost colapsing over the wheel while I was driving home from school. Only the fear of dieing in a car crash kept me from actually passing out. Check out Ryan F's other blog it's talks he's given and issues he feels like writing about. There are only two posts so far, but they're good. A girl in the bathroom gave me the dirtiest look ever today; it greatly amused me. And while I was resting in a chair during my break today my English prof walked by and acted all excited to see me. She wanted to tell me again that she liked me comic and wanted to know if she could keep it and put it up in her room. I said sure, it's not like it took a great deal of time or effort. Oh, and I got a letter from Mount Royal today, apparently I made it on the Dean's Honour roll for last semester. That made me laugh, I wonder what the world is coming to when they let a person like me on the Dean's Honour roll. I need to rest before heading to church tonight, maybe listen to old CD's in the dark or something.
I've felt sick for the past two days, if it wasn't obvious, but late last night I started feeling like I had a cold sick. Woke up this morning feeling dead... which reminds me of a song, "I woke up, this morning, I woke up dead today. I aged a thousand years, or more." - Jack Off Jill Anyways, that really had no significance. My throat's all sore and my nose is runny and I feel so weak... I was almost colapsing over the wheel while I was driving home from school. Only the fear of dieing in a car crash kept me from actually passing out. Check out Ryan F's other blog it's talks he's given and issues he feels like writing about. There are only two posts so far, but they're good. A girl in the bathroom gave me the dirtiest look ever today; it greatly amused me. And while I was resting in a chair during my break today my English prof walked by and acted all excited to see me. She wanted to tell me again that she liked me comic and wanted to know if she could keep it and put it up in her room. I said sure, it's not like it took a great deal of time or effort. Oh, and I got a letter from Mount Royal today, apparently I made it on the Dean's Honour roll for last semester. That made me laugh, I wonder what the world is coming to when they let a person like me on the Dean's Honour roll. I need to rest before heading to church tonight, maybe listen to old CD's in the dark or something.
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
Matchbook Romance - Tiger Lilly
I figured out why that song didn't sound right... Lesley, Kendall, remember that song I wrote that just didn't fit? The one that was REALLY HARD... Yeah, I was goofing around on my guitar today and realised we were playing it in the wrong key. It should be played in C#m (eep! I know, what a sick key) but at least now it's do-able *hopes* lets re-write the music for it.
I figured out why that song didn't sound right... Lesley, Kendall, remember that song I wrote that just didn't fit? The one that was REALLY HARD... Yeah, I was goofing around on my guitar today and realised we were playing it in the wrong key. It should be played in C#m (eep! I know, what a sick key) but at least now it's do-able *hopes* lets re-write the music for it.
X-Japan - Scars
It was a really nice day, then a storm came in. It turned everything around, sunny and melting to rain and then blowing snow. I forgot how much I love driving through snow, the obscured vision, the uncertainty as to whether you'll make it through the weather (look, the same sound, but DIFFERENT WORDS! who'da thunk it). So I filmed scenes five and six today, I wish I'd have written scene seven... I know how I want it to go and everything, and it's supposed to be happening at the same time as scene six... blah. I'll just convince Warren and Claudia to get together with me another day... if Echo house will let me film there. It's sick, I've had two large mocca's today and two extra large tea's (I still don't feel very caffinated). And I haven't been hungry all day... It's weird, caffinated beverages are the only thing that make me feel better right now.
It was a really nice day, then a storm came in. It turned everything around, sunny and melting to rain and then blowing snow. I forgot how much I love driving through snow, the obscured vision, the uncertainty as to whether you'll make it through the weather (look, the same sound, but DIFFERENT WORDS! who'da thunk it). So I filmed scenes five and six today, I wish I'd have written scene seven... I know how I want it to go and everything, and it's supposed to be happening at the same time as scene six... blah. I'll just convince Warren and Claudia to get together with me another day... if Echo house will let me film there. It's sick, I've had two large mocca's today and two extra large tea's (I still don't feel very caffinated). And I haven't been hungry all day... It's weird, caffinated beverages are the only thing that make me feel better right now.
Sugarcult - Hate Every Beautiful Day
That's a good song... except that I love the whether today because it's so nice... I guess I do hate that I'm stuck inside doing homework though (and watch me go). I just finished my coffee, that makes me sad. I wish I had musical talent, I really don't... boo-urns, I'm such a poser (watch me pretend I know what I'm doing). I'm thirsty, but I'm too lazy to go get water from downstairs (isn't it great) even though I have to go back down to get my notebook anyways, to type up scene six, which I wrote late last night. Then I lay on my bed in the dark and listened to an old burned CD of mine (I feel like such an emo kid) and then tried to play my guitar... with no luck (and I don't know why; I wish I could). I was hungry during class today, but now the sensation has passed... even though I SHOULD eat something, I don't think I will. I should probably work on this film so I can convince my prof (convince myself) that I can create something worthwhile. Everything I've done in that class so far this year has been such a joke. Take today for instance, she told us to write something about space so I drew a comic strip about aliens. She liked it but still... I'd like to make something serious, and be taken seriously for once. It may seem like I don't care about that, that I'm just coasting through life and trying to be funny, but sometimes I do (I care).
That's a good song... except that I love the whether today because it's so nice... I guess I do hate that I'm stuck inside doing homework though (and watch me go). I just finished my coffee, that makes me sad. I wish I had musical talent, I really don't... boo-urns, I'm such a poser (watch me pretend I know what I'm doing). I'm thirsty, but I'm too lazy to go get water from downstairs (isn't it great) even though I have to go back down to get my notebook anyways, to type up scene six, which I wrote late last night. Then I lay on my bed in the dark and listened to an old burned CD of mine (I feel like such an emo kid) and then tried to play my guitar... with no luck (and I don't know why; I wish I could). I was hungry during class today, but now the sensation has passed... even though I SHOULD eat something, I don't think I will. I should probably work on this film so I can convince my prof (convince myself) that I can create something worthwhile. Everything I've done in that class so far this year has been such a joke. Take today for instance, she told us to write something about space so I drew a comic strip about aliens. She liked it but still... I'd like to make something serious, and be taken seriously for once. It may seem like I don't care about that, that I'm just coasting through life and trying to be funny, but sometimes I do (I care).
Monday, March 08, 2004
Dashboard Confessional - Living in your Letters
I didn't know what was wrong, why I was feeling this way... Why I was doing these things... until Saturday night. I figured it out, I know what's wrong and there's nothing I can do about it. I want to be... somewhere... nowhere, I don't know. I was bored last night, so I wrote some music for a song... I have no lyrics... nothing to say.
I didn't know what was wrong, why I was feeling this way... Why I was doing these things... until Saturday night. I figured it out, I know what's wrong and there's nothing I can do about it. I want to be... somewhere... nowhere, I don't know. I was bored last night, so I wrote some music for a song... I have no lyrics... nothing to say.
Sunday, March 07, 2004
Modest Mouse - A Different City
Yesterday was neat, Kim and Warren and Candy and Mike and Claudia and Devin came over to film scene 3, hang out, film scene 2, hang out... you get the idea. Everyone but Candy left, then Alecia showed up and we "watched" Moulin Rouge (I use quotations because we really talked through it more than we watched) and then played some Super Mario bros. 3 on my NES, then played some Mario Party (during which Mike J showed up again), went to Mac's for a junkfood run at midnight, ate loads of junk, finished playing Mario Party (I was the superstar, woot!) and played some 007 for awhile. They left at about 2 am, then I played Princess Maker 2 on my laptop until 5 am, went to bed, woke up again at 11, ate some bacon and chocolate and now here I am! I'm trying to edit what I've filmed, but Adobe's being stupid and not capturing my clips.
Yesterday was neat, Kim and Warren and Candy and Mike and Claudia and Devin came over to film scene 3, hang out, film scene 2, hang out... you get the idea. Everyone but Candy left, then Alecia showed up and we "watched" Moulin Rouge (I use quotations because we really talked through it more than we watched) and then played some Super Mario bros. 3 on my NES, then played some Mario Party (during which Mike J showed up again), went to Mac's for a junkfood run at midnight, ate loads of junk, finished playing Mario Party (I was the superstar, woot!) and played some 007 for awhile. They left at about 2 am, then I played Princess Maker 2 on my laptop until 5 am, went to bed, woke up again at 11, ate some bacon and chocolate and now here I am! I'm trying to edit what I've filmed, but Adobe's being stupid and not capturing my clips.
Friday, March 05, 2004
Rolling Stones - Paint it Black
I got 6648 on my last game of Solitare, New record thankyouverymuch. And yesterday I raised Olive (Princess maker 2) to be court magician, best I've ever done in that game. Who's the man? that's right, I AM! lol.
I got 6648 on my last game of Solitare, New record thankyouverymuch. And yesterday I raised Olive (Princess maker 2) to be court magician, best I've ever done in that game. Who's the man? that's right, I AM! lol.
Drowning Pool - Bodies
I've been twitching... all day... for no apparent reason. Today was Chris' last day at Second Cup. He made me a cinnamon mocca. Scott was working, I waved hello. No one else was working. I feel tired and sick and I still need to send a package in the mail and develop my Harry Potter RP character and edit scene 4 and read my sociology text and study philosophy and econ and write a response to a reading in english. grah...
I've been twitching... all day... for no apparent reason. Today was Chris' last day at Second Cup. He made me a cinnamon mocca. Scott was working, I waved hello. No one else was working. I feel tired and sick and I still need to send a package in the mail and develop my Harry Potter RP character and edit scene 4 and read my sociology text and study philosophy and econ and write a response to a reading in english. grah...
Thursday, March 04, 2004
trapt - when all is said and done
googlism yourself.
alison is on the phone
alison is in the babybedroom
alison is a scary individual
alison is the bomb
alison is a wicked character
alison is first lady of the sky
alison is evicted
alison is on the phone by lynda williams written spring 2001
alison is a mystic in the great tradition of sufism
alison is a highly experienced independent trainer and consultant specializing in windows applications training and development
alison is still in hollywood and sharon
alison is a frequent guest on talk shows and game shows including merv griffin
alison is discovered by the paparazzi
alison is a highly experienced independent trainer and consultant
alison is originally a graduate of biological sciences
alison is cool; she waits for us
alison is an extremely gifted and committed individual
alison is wonderfully supportive and immensely instructive
alison is the head of the firm's litigation department
alison is comfortable with
alison is described as young and wild
alison is also a brilliant composer and a vibrant and innovative performer who delights everyone she entertains on her zeta
alison is
alison is my fourteen
alison is quite happy with the comparison
alison is devastated
alison is a young woman of the tharawal people of la perouse
alison is a great book to read if you're 10
alison is always very busy
alison is a five
alison is a speech pathologist who teaches in specialty area of voice and voice disorders as well as the professional practice topics
alison is currently lobbying for a new system by which staff would be able to choose a certain number of books for each decade that they had been alive
alison is also likened to a kid or a calf following its mother
alison is a mature player who will be counted on to provide solid play in the middle position
alison is well into the second decade of providing caring
alison is an international artist who performs in cathedrals and churches worldwide
alison is also vibrant proof that cancer can be overcome
alison is the inspiration behind the style of alison's garden
alison is an expert in soy offering specialized insight into the areas of soy and breast cancer
alison is a member of the association of pet behaviour counsellors and has worked as a professional therapist
alison is able to take a highly technical topic and present it in
alison is constantly seeking her inner wisdom and compelling all whom she touches to do the same
alison is tall and slim
alison is a 2001 graduate from mount zion high school in jonesboro
alison is currently filming a music video to 'happy ever after'
alison is great
alison is a partner in an airline freight business
alison is an
alison is living proof that you can't judge a book by its cover
alison is observed by lord richland
alison is the least senior member present
alison is working on a new series called "the gaurdian series
alison is up for it
alison is the second smallest one in the litter
alison is alumnus of the university of central lancashire
alison is leaving the accountants after going for advice
alison is either infuriated by her or nice about her
alison is allergic to chocolate and ate her last mars bar in 1980
alison is the daughter of peter and mary chou of hazel park
alison is clearing out her closet
alison is responsible for a myriad of duties
alison is a member of beta gold
alison is likely to be a neuroscience concentrator at brown
alison is available to offer advice on her areas of expertise when requested
alison is having trouble fitting in
alison is another ranger who started her career off working as a season ranger for mike leach
alison is my girlfriend
alison is left with maplebark manor
alison is currently in the process of becoming dona certified
alison is 100% committed to insuring that her services meet your needs
alison is known for her strong work ethic and has won numerous awards for news reporting
alison is a published author and professional astrologer with around twenty years of experience in astrology
alison is noted for both architecture and interiors and is featured in numerous magazines including elle décor
alison is a senior principal research scientist in csiro's division of exploration and mining's structural controls on mineralisation group
alison is given a pipe bowl which once belonged to the micmac indians
alison is a voting member of the collegian board of directors and heads its board of editors
alison is surely one now
alison is a callaway staff player who has enjoyed playing callaway equipment for the last three years with great success
alison is the subject of this fine retrospective
alison is a fine art degree graduate from manchester metropolitan university in england and is currently studying for an mfa at kent institute
alison is the latest addition to the school of nursing and midwifery
alison is the model going to bermuda with jack
alison is to take part in a fly
alison is currently responsible for the following lecture schedules
alison is under the stress of applying for her major
alison is originally from willoughby ohio and a graduate of eastern michigan university
alison is evicted
alison is the bomb
alison is on the phone
alison is a highly experienced
alison is in the babybedroom
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alison is fuckin' a
alison is on the phone by lynda williams written spring 2001
alison is a highly experienced independent trainer and consultant
alison is a mystic in the great tradition of sufism
alison is not suiting up
alison is
alison is discovered by the paparazzi
alison is the first woman in new zealand to hold both clu and cfp
alison is still in hollywood and sharon
alison is involved with
alison is a highly experienced independent trainer alison is on the phone alison is all girl alison is in the babybedroom alison is attempting alison is a
alison is a highly experienced independent trainer alison is on the phone alison is in the babybedroom alison is attempting alison is the bomb alison is a
alison is originally a graduate of biological sciences
alison is cool; she waits for us
alison is in a bad mood
alison is the head of the firm's litigation department
alison is now wearing a golden satin dress with sequin adornments along the collar
alison is not wearing
alison is an extremely gifted and committed individual
alison is wonderfully supportive and immensely instructive
alison is overwhelmed at 12/25/2001 09
alison is overwhelmed at 1
alison is tipped to
alison is described as young and wild
alison is seen wearing those horrible white "keds" with her blue jeans
alison is not standing again for the assembly in may 2003
alison is seen with the sanctuary's manager david saxon just after the chip was fitted
alison is recognized in
alison is stabled at the palm beach polo equestrian club in wellington
alison is also a brilliant composer and a vibrant and innovative performer who delights everyone she entertains on her zeta
alison is using state
alison is shown to be
alison is up for it
alison is my fourteen
alison is a young woman of the tharawal people of la perouse
alison is a very sweet kitty with a strong maternal streak
alison is always very busy
alison is currently filming a music video to 'happy ever after'
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alison is currently lobbying for a new system by which staff would be able to choose a certain number of books for each decade that they had been alive
alison is also likened to a kid or a calf following its mother
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alison is a mature player who will be counted on to provide solid play in the middle position
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alison is one of very few specialist classical mandolin players
alison is now the lead singer of rock band
alison is a 2001 graduate from mount zion high school in jonesboro
alison is featured in the november issue of seventeen magazine
alison is quick to point out that whilst shoulder pads and pin stripe suits do have their place in life from time to time
alison is both a licensed advanced social worker and a licensed independent social worker with the state department of licensing
alison is alumnus of the university of central lancashire
alison is a microsoft certified professional and was one of the first professionals in the computer industry to become a microsoft certified solutions
alison is observed by lord richland
alison is the least senior member present
alison is living proof that you can't judge a book by its cover
alison is an enthusiastic
alison is seriously pissed off and needs cheering up
alison is in demand as a jazz vocalist and performs extensively at music venues throughout the chicagoland area
alison is a natural choice for this honor
alison is smug
alison is a partner in an airline freight business
alison is fresh
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Dashboard Confessional - This Ruined Puzzle
Tuesday night was cool, went to Ryan M's and watched School of Rock (it's such a good movie) with him, Sarah, Bryce, Melissa, Trevor and Brandon (for a little bit). Afterwards we just sat around talking and stuff, it was good, just like old times. I've decided that Queen - Forever is a beautiful piano piece *dies* I put in my "A Kind Of Magic" CD the other night and it came on near the end... so good. Yesterday was kinda busy, seeing as I'm not supposed to work wednesdays (for good reason) but was scheduled anyways. So I came home from school, changed my shoes, and went straight to work. It was dead, as usual. People are really weird. There was this one lady and you know, I allways ask, "how are you?" because it's polite, right? Well she was like, "uh, AMERICAN IDOL IS ON! duh." strange people... Today Chris V made me a Caramel Coretto, that was new and interesting. It's gotten to the point where they just make me a random drink and I pay and drink it... weird ^^; but cool. Visited miss Melissa at work today, she showed me this crazy head massager thing. Josh A was there for a bit too, so that was neat. Might go out with them tonight (depends on if I finish my homework that I've assigned myself or not). Anyhow, I should get to that... homework of sorts.
Tuesday night was cool, went to Ryan M's and watched School of Rock (it's such a good movie) with him, Sarah, Bryce, Melissa, Trevor and Brandon (for a little bit). Afterwards we just sat around talking and stuff, it was good, just like old times. I've decided that Queen - Forever is a beautiful piano piece *dies* I put in my "A Kind Of Magic" CD the other night and it came on near the end... so good. Yesterday was kinda busy, seeing as I'm not supposed to work wednesdays (for good reason) but was scheduled anyways. So I came home from school, changed my shoes, and went straight to work. It was dead, as usual. People are really weird. There was this one lady and you know, I allways ask, "how are you?" because it's polite, right? Well she was like, "uh, AMERICAN IDOL IS ON! duh." strange people... Today Chris V made me a Caramel Coretto, that was new and interesting. It's gotten to the point where they just make me a random drink and I pay and drink it... weird ^^; but cool. Visited miss Melissa at work today, she showed me this crazy head massager thing. Josh A was there for a bit too, so that was neat. Might go out with them tonight (depends on if I finish my homework that I've assigned myself or not). Anyhow, I should get to that... homework of sorts.
Tuesday, March 02, 2004
Sugarcult - Crashing Down
I filmed scene four today, that was allright. I've still got to edit it and hopefully turn up the volume ^^; went to Southcenter during the day after school and before filming, got coffee, visited Melissa and was invited to Ryan's tonight to watch a movie. Visited Brandon (he was busy, so I just said hi). Ooh, I also got my first English essay back today, I got 80%, woot! That's amazing for me, I usually get stuck with 70's in english. I think college english is just easier than high school english, which is... weird. My throat is still sore, which sucks. I think I shall show up at Ryan's tonight, I don't think I could make myself do homework tonight, even if I wanted to. I'm just dead and tired. It's not like I have to have anything done for tomorrow anyways. That song makes me remember sadness. It makes me remember days and days spent along in my basement reading and drawing and crying and just being alone, not wanting to see, touch, feel the outside world at all. It makes me feel like it's 6:00pm on the second day in a row and I haven't changed out of my PJ's yet or had a shower or brushed my hair or eaten anything... just curled up with my novels, sketchbooks, CD's, notebooks. Yeah, I both miss and don't miss those times... which doesn't make much sense. -'Cause every time I bleed I make a fool of me... I'm suffocating.-
I filmed scene four today, that was allright. I've still got to edit it and hopefully turn up the volume ^^; went to Southcenter during the day after school and before filming, got coffee, visited Melissa and was invited to Ryan's tonight to watch a movie. Visited Brandon (he was busy, so I just said hi). Ooh, I also got my first English essay back today, I got 80%, woot! That's amazing for me, I usually get stuck with 70's in english. I think college english is just easier than high school english, which is... weird. My throat is still sore, which sucks. I think I shall show up at Ryan's tonight, I don't think I could make myself do homework tonight, even if I wanted to. I'm just dead and tired. It's not like I have to have anything done for tomorrow anyways. That song makes me remember sadness. It makes me remember days and days spent along in my basement reading and drawing and crying and just being alone, not wanting to see, touch, feel the outside world at all. It makes me feel like it's 6:00pm on the second day in a row and I haven't changed out of my PJ's yet or had a shower or brushed my hair or eaten anything... just curled up with my novels, sketchbooks, CD's, notebooks. Yeah, I both miss and don't miss those times... which doesn't make much sense. -'Cause every time I bleed I make a fool of me... I'm suffocating.-
Monday, March 01, 2004
One Side Zero - Tapwater
Chris V made me a different, more expensive, cofee today but still only charged me for my normal coffee. It was okay, a bit sweeter than I'm used to though. I convinced a girl in my Philosophy class to look into joining dartwars today in class, and last night at church I convinced Erin and Curtis to look into it. I'm hoping I'll have allies this game, lol. Visited Brandon while getting my coffee today; poor boy, he's sick. I've got to type up what I've written so far for my screenplay, then print off/hi-lite three copies. My mom said I could use her camcorder, woot! I got two e-mails form Danny today, I miss that kid. When he gets back in late August we're supposed to go camping, anyone else interested in coming? It'll be a blast. Anyhow, I really need to do this typing and maybe write a few more scenes... Maybe I can find coffee and make myself more... heh, I don't think I need any more, though I might need some water or food soon. All I've had so far today is a tuna sandwich, a coffee and a glass of OJ.
Chris V made me a different, more expensive, cofee today but still only charged me for my normal coffee. It was okay, a bit sweeter than I'm used to though. I convinced a girl in my Philosophy class to look into joining dartwars today in class, and last night at church I convinced Erin and Curtis to look into it. I'm hoping I'll have allies this game, lol. Visited Brandon while getting my coffee today; poor boy, he's sick. I've got to type up what I've written so far for my screenplay, then print off/hi-lite three copies. My mom said I could use her camcorder, woot! I got two e-mails form Danny today, I miss that kid. When he gets back in late August we're supposed to go camping, anyone else interested in coming? It'll be a blast. Anyhow, I really need to do this typing and maybe write a few more scenes... Maybe I can find coffee and make myself more... heh, I don't think I need any more, though I might need some water or food soon. All I've had so far today is a tuna sandwich, a coffee and a glass of OJ.